“Stop playing with your food you thwart”
My ears ring as she speaks
A wishful thought fills my mind
If only I could block out everything she says
My head would be a better place.
Why should I eat bread as stale as this?
One that looks like it was made without yeast.
Why should I drink a cloudy tea?
One that looks like it lacks rich milk.
My life as an orphan goes without saying
It’s a paradise for the hopeless but it’s not mine.
I seek more from life than I’ve been given
But I fear I will not be able to fit in.
A larger world presents itself out there
Waiting for me to build up my courage.
I am but a mere sixteen year old,
In two years’ time, I will be able to walk out.
Out there lies my freedom
Out there is where my life shall begin.
But I fear
O how I fear!
If I will be able to fit in.
A girl who only knows the alphabet
A girl who has lost both parents.
One who has slaved her life away
One with no trust in man again.
How shall I fit in?
In a world I do not know
A place where only men grow
A land where women hide in men’s shadows.
Is that the world I will meet?
One that will refuse to accommodate me?
In two years’ time I shall know
If earth is a place I will lay my head
If she will embrace my loneliness.
In two years’ time I will be reborn
As a girl no one knows.
My past has already been written
But my future is still unknown.
I poke my bread with a sigh
As I lift the thing towards my mouth
In two years’ time I will know
If bread will still taste like dust everywhere I go.